Gone but not forgotten

That dark place in my heart with no light is suddenly making itself known I wish I never had to hear the words that you were gone forever I wish I had done some things differently, but you’re not here to hear my explanations The last thing you ever said to me was you were sorry we had lost touch I’d give anything to hold you in my arms one last time I’ll let the rage go, I’ll let the violence escape my mind, although it’ll be easy to find again.. I can’t help but be angry that they thought your life wasn’t worth living And all you could do was bleed at someone’s door step till it was too late I guess we all have our fate And this one happens to be yours But I’d give years of my life it meant I could be around you for a little while longer I know you told me you felt for me, ooh and I was too stubborn to admit I felt the same I thought I’d have another chance when things weren’t so complicated to let you into my soul But all I got was bad news that you had been taken away forever All I had was a message that I will never be able to forget You’re an angel now and I’m a demon in the making trying to decipher right from wrong It would’ve been easier if I had had you all along The memories aren’t dead and neither are you ‘cause they still live I hope that somehow you can hear me when I tell you I never wanted this for you Nobody did, you didn’t deserve it, justice will be served but that won’t bring you back And because of that you’ll just be the light at the end of the tunnel, the feelings I can still feel, the happy times I get to have I just wish you could be there….. You might be gone but never forgotten Yeah, you’re gone but not forgotten

A brand new life

Do you mind if I run this time? I can’t take the war of words anymore The cuts on my soul are getting too deep, but I’m not afraid to die I’m already plenty dead inside…though I still have the feeling of a glimmer of hope And if I stay I’ll surely die No more tears, only laughter now that I’m gone I haven’t been this happy in a long time I knew I had to run from that life, all the lies I kept a secret… Or else I wouldn’t have survived… It feels good to have moved on I pushed all the happy memories away, all the bad memories away There’s nothing left of the wreckage anymore I can survive now, I have something to smile about I can finally breathe again! **Disclaimer- None of the above is about any one person or one event

A new beginning

First of all, I would like to thank all my friends that have stuck with me through these hard times recently. I could not have done it with out you...you know who you are...some of you won't be reading this blog entry, but that is ok, I will tell you in another form of communication. That being said I'm not going to dwell on my past or bring up old stupid shit. I'm moving forward with everything in life: work, friendships, possible new relationships, all that you know...regular bullshit everyone claims to be doing these days. Yes, I write poetry/lyrics sometimes and sometimes I post them here. It's my blog, I can do what I want. I've gone through a shit storm recently for quite some time and I would just like to say it's good to be back to my normal self...and yes as you can see from my twitter I have been very supportive for multiple causes...why? Because I'm an intelligent human being that cares about individual freedom and censorship. Fuck censorship, fuck big brother, fuck the federal reserve, and most of all fuck gun grabbers. Thanks for the whole maybe 2 minutes you took to read this. Oh, and btw, yeah this blog is also for informing you about cam stuff...But hell, most of you don't take the time to read my fucking profiles so why in the hell would you read my blog? Alas, this blog has become a way for me to vent and whoever reads it reads it. Adios!

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New Year

Finally, the new year is here! I have major plans for this year including being on cam a lot more for you guys!!! ;) You'll be seeing MUCH more of me on streamate and I will be on niteflirt and skype as well. With in the next few months I am planning to move to a different place and probably get a new car, I'll be sure to post pics :-D I am very excited about life again, something I was lacking most of this past year. I have no one breathing down my neck about anything, so life is good. I'm finally taking some time to focus on MYSELF and not worry about anyone else..if something more serious happens to come along I won't push it away but I'm not looking for it right now...I am enjoying playing right now haha. I will be filming some videos/clips for you guys too, I've got some pretty cool ideas ;) In the mean time follow me on twitter @tracy_blade for all my updates!

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Hey guys new blog here :-) I am $2/min with a 10 minute minimum unless you decide to go through niteflirt where you can find me by simply searching my name on the site. We can discuss payment methods when you message me. My yahoo id is starryeyed861. I DO: Dp/anal , pussy fucking, role playing, fetishes, oral, lingerie, heels, and more. I DO NOT do: fisting, pissing, scat, vomit, any self harm. I am also somewhat dominant so I do prefer submissive men when dealing with fetishes but it's fine if you are dominate because I am quite good at being your  dirty lil slut ;)